Thursday, January 13, 2011
Never have I said something less true than this. I'm not fine and I have no idea how to go about being fine again. My brain can't seem to wrap it's self around the fact that my dad is gone. I thought I was doing okay. I broke down at the hospital and cried the whole night it happened and throughout the week leading up to the funeral. I barely cried at the funeral. Was something wrong with me? I had moments over the next few days where I would cry. Tonight, the fact that he was really really gone seemed to smack me in the face. I've been in tears most of the night. Is this normal? When should I start to worry that I'm not dealing well?